Jun 13, 2008
My Cloud
Its floating there, up there, up in the blue sky.......
Limitless arms extending wide,
One arm it has rooted in me and the other has no bounds,
It dreams to reach out, more and more and up it goes........
Waiting to embrace me, but never looking behind.....
Flawless,it flies.....never looking behind......
looking for more and up it goes.......to touch the heaven doors.......
It knows no direction, spreads out here and there,
has no idea where it should go, confused little pup it is........
Its confused for what next and suddenly looks into my eyes....
It drank my feelings like a hungry baby,
It swooped me off my feet,It took me into its arm and alas !!
dropped me back........for it has to go ahead and it can't stop here,
It can't stop even for its dearest lover,
for it dreams to reach out, more and more and leaving me behind up it goes............
Oh! Its not my heart but the sheepish cloud........
and there it is and up it goes.......
leaving me sobbing behind..........
A poem for the heart.............
What is it, that attracts one person towards another,
What is it, that attracts me to you I'm still trying to find the answer
But I know the only soul that completes my world, is YOU.....
I like your smile, I like your way,
Just meeting you once makes my day................
I like your eyes, I like your hair,
I want you to know that I truly care,
I want to talk to you, I want to walk with you,
The only thing in my mind, is to get close to you....................
What is it, that attracts me to you I'm still trying to find the answer
But I know the only soul that completes my world, is YOU.....
I like your smile, I like your way,
Just meeting you once makes my day................
I like your eyes, I like your hair,
I want you to know that I truly care,
I want to talk to you, I want to walk with you,
The only thing in my mind, is to get close to you....................
Jun 12, 2008
I do remember him......
This phase of my story is not so significant but God knows why I do remember the person till now.
It was when I was in class 3. I was the class topper then and was a teacher's pet obviously.
At that time three of us were good friends. Me, Dibyendu and Anirban. Of the two I liked Anirban more since not only he was bright but was charming too. This is my interpretation now since it is hard to believe that I had so much thought power at that age.
So me and Anirban were very good friends and I admit that I admired him a lot. I feel sorry to even say it now that I ignored my other friend Dibyendu although he was always there for me. I remember the vibes from Dibyendu which made me uncomfortable, for his friendship was different, he cared a hell about me and may be that was what made me feel uneasy in his presence. Soon I started avoiding him and I used to see that dismay on his face but I didn't care about it and spoke to him minimally.
In all this suddenly Anirban decided to leave school and I was pretty upset with it. He had left and only me and Dibyendu were left. I felt alone and during this period I felt more of Dibyendu's care. But it worked adversely for him coz I started to avoid him more. Soon I too was shifted from that school and thanked God for it. I was not sad that I lost him as a friend.
I was shifted to a girl's school. It was a comfortable environment for me as compared to the past but as I was growing up I became a bit of timid and introvert. Even after school when my other friends fled away to the boy's portion I shied away from any such being and came back home directly without giving that a much thought.
Some four years later..........
My parents took to an uncle's place. It was a big house with a separate room for kids to play. I was enjoying with my friends when suddenly somebody closed my eyes from behind. I couldn't guess who the hell it was for the person never spoke.
I was in a state of panic and suddenly I was released. I was unable to recognise the person since I felt I never saw him nor was he related to me anyhow. My friends told me that he was some Raja. I searched in my thought database but I couldn't recollect any such name.
Then the person opened up. He was Dibyendu. Now much taller, a bit manly and smarter. I looked at him with a fixed gaze. But suddenly all previous thoughts came in and I rushed to join my parents. Everyone understood my tremor and tried calming me saying Raja is a good boy. I couldn't reason out why I was scared but I promised myself not to go there anymore. That day I saw a certain sadness in his eyes but I couldn't help myself.
After that I made it a point that I would never visit that uncle's house ever again. Only once I had been there for a marriage reception couple of years later with the same fear and by sheer bad luck met him again. That time I had gone with a friend of mine. I do remember that he was flirting with my friend but from the corner of his eyes he was seeing me. I couldn't tell my friend to leave the place for she too was busy with him but I was transfixed with terror.
After that I never went to that place. I don't know what happened to him. God forbid but I even don't know whether he exists on this earth or not. But something still strikes within me.
Whenever I seek loneliness his face peeps in. I hate the very thought of him but he simply doesn't walk off from my thoughts. I can't say I hate him for he did not do any such thing, I can't say I feel something for him since I really don't have any such emotion towards him. What is it I don't know but there is still something.
I admit that may be I had hurt him, his heart perhaps for I did feel that and if he reads this I am really sorry for hurting you but I seriously coudn't help it. I am sorry Dibyendu and I hope you are very happy in your current life and always be.
It was when I was in class 3. I was the class topper then and was a teacher's pet obviously.
At that time three of us were good friends. Me, Dibyendu and Anirban. Of the two I liked Anirban more since not only he was bright but was charming too. This is my interpretation now since it is hard to believe that I had so much thought power at that age.
So me and Anirban were very good friends and I admit that I admired him a lot. I feel sorry to even say it now that I ignored my other friend Dibyendu although he was always there for me. I remember the vibes from Dibyendu which made me uncomfortable, for his friendship was different, he cared a hell about me and may be that was what made me feel uneasy in his presence. Soon I started avoiding him and I used to see that dismay on his face but I didn't care about it and spoke to him minimally.
In all this suddenly Anirban decided to leave school and I was pretty upset with it. He had left and only me and Dibyendu were left. I felt alone and during this period I felt more of Dibyendu's care. But it worked adversely for him coz I started to avoid him more. Soon I too was shifted from that school and thanked God for it. I was not sad that I lost him as a friend.
I was shifted to a girl's school. It was a comfortable environment for me as compared to the past but as I was growing up I became a bit of timid and introvert. Even after school when my other friends fled away to the boy's portion I shied away from any such being and came back home directly without giving that a much thought.
Some four years later..........
My parents took to an uncle's place. It was a big house with a separate room for kids to play. I was enjoying with my friends when suddenly somebody closed my eyes from behind. I couldn't guess who the hell it was for the person never spoke.
I was in a state of panic and suddenly I was released. I was unable to recognise the person since I felt I never saw him nor was he related to me anyhow. My friends told me that he was some Raja. I searched in my thought database but I couldn't recollect any such name.
Then the person opened up. He was Dibyendu. Now much taller, a bit manly and smarter. I looked at him with a fixed gaze. But suddenly all previous thoughts came in and I rushed to join my parents. Everyone understood my tremor and tried calming me saying Raja is a good boy. I couldn't reason out why I was scared but I promised myself not to go there anymore. That day I saw a certain sadness in his eyes but I couldn't help myself.
After that I made it a point that I would never visit that uncle's house ever again. Only once I had been there for a marriage reception couple of years later with the same fear and by sheer bad luck met him again. That time I had gone with a friend of mine. I do remember that he was flirting with my friend but from the corner of his eyes he was seeing me. I couldn't tell my friend to leave the place for she too was busy with him but I was transfixed with terror.
After that I never went to that place. I don't know what happened to him. God forbid but I even don't know whether he exists on this earth or not. But something still strikes within me.
Whenever I seek loneliness his face peeps in. I hate the very thought of him but he simply doesn't walk off from my thoughts. I can't say I hate him for he did not do any such thing, I can't say I feel something for him since I really don't have any such emotion towards him. What is it I don't know but there is still something.
I admit that may be I had hurt him, his heart perhaps for I did feel that and if he reads this I am really sorry for hurting you but I seriously coudn't help it. I am sorry Dibyendu and I hope you are very happy in your current life and always be.
Introducing Riya
Riya. A simple yet very stylish gal. Looks up to the sky yet so grounded to earth. Her dreams are boundless yet so much bounded are her limits. She isn't beautiful to the least but she is a friend to all. She loves herself and music is her life.
She bears a welcome smile for all and has a heart that cherishes little moments even if its miniscule. She is romantic, very filmy, daring for any kind of adventure, willing to take up challenge yet so lazy and loves to dream. She dreams fame, she dreams love, she dreams of a happy world. She likes dancing for herself, singing on top of her voice, disturbing being her fav task and naughtiness is ingrained in her. She likes being pampered, she loves to be caressed. She is notorious and flaunts off whenever she feels like yet she is surrounded by a sea of friends and loved by one and all.
But still somewhere deep down she is so alone, desolate, craving for someone. A someone who will change her world, her world which is devoid of the love she always dreamt of, a someone who will share her darkest wildest dreams, a someone who is as adventurous as her and a someone who can read her mind through her eyes.
Her search for that someone is still on. God knows when her search will end but she will be waiting with all her love and faith only for that one person so that one fine day when he comes she will be there ready to rain all her love upon him and can say looking into his eyes that
"Dear For you So long I have been waiting and when you are here take me into your arms and let me rest awhile on your chest for so long a journey I have come from, that I am agonising in pain. I have been fighting to keep myself as pure as I could, sometimes nearly gave up to desires but every grey cell resisting me and I have come ahead, overcoming all lures and here I am in front of you. Cut me off from the world oh beloved! Make me a part of yours, let me feel the warmth of your being, let me cry in your arms and let time stop by. Oh my love! I have been waiting for you for ages and if you are here now promise me, promise me you won't leave me, promise me you'ld love me with all that you have, promise me you'll never leave me alone, promise me that not only our souls but let our breaths too be united so that without you no single breath I have to breathe, not a single moment I live and let not with death even do we part."
She bears a welcome smile for all and has a heart that cherishes little moments even if its miniscule. She is romantic, very filmy, daring for any kind of adventure, willing to take up challenge yet so lazy and loves to dream. She dreams fame, she dreams love, she dreams of a happy world. She likes dancing for herself, singing on top of her voice, disturbing being her fav task and naughtiness is ingrained in her. She likes being pampered, she loves to be caressed. She is notorious and flaunts off whenever she feels like yet she is surrounded by a sea of friends and loved by one and all.
But still somewhere deep down she is so alone, desolate, craving for someone. A someone who will change her world, her world which is devoid of the love she always dreamt of, a someone who will share her darkest wildest dreams, a someone who is as adventurous as her and a someone who can read her mind through her eyes.
Her search for that someone is still on. God knows when her search will end but she will be waiting with all her love and faith only for that one person so that one fine day when he comes she will be there ready to rain all her love upon him and can say looking into his eyes that
"Dear For you So long I have been waiting and when you are here take me into your arms and let me rest awhile on your chest for so long a journey I have come from, that I am agonising in pain. I have been fighting to keep myself as pure as I could, sometimes nearly gave up to desires but every grey cell resisting me and I have come ahead, overcoming all lures and here I am in front of you. Cut me off from the world oh beloved! Make me a part of yours, let me feel the warmth of your being, let me cry in your arms and let time stop by. Oh my love! I have been waiting for you for ages and if you are here now promise me, promise me you won't leave me, promise me you'ld love me with all that you have, promise me you'll never leave me alone, promise me that not only our souls but let our breaths too be united so that without you no single breath I have to breathe, not a single moment I live and let not with death even do we part."
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